today

Today, I feel mostly ok.  I've been thinking ALOT about what the point of life is.  I wonder if its individual or pluralistic.  The stuff I've been reading by the Dalai Lama talks about altruistic intention, and bringing compassion to others.  I wonder if the purpose of life can be found in what we do for others, the mark we make on this world, on our family and friends, on strangers, our legacy, OR is the purpose of life individual, to better ourselves, our minds. 

Patience

I used to think I was smart, I don't know anymore.  I feel alone.  I feel helpless.  I feel scared.  I hate DRAMA and it feel like my life is filled with it right now.  I know I am a ball of emotion, with waves and crests.  I just want to be happy.  I'm patient and impatient all at once.  Sometimes I say crazy things, like I feel my life is getting away from me, and then I say some normal things, like, duh, Bianca your life is right now.  I think too much.  For sure.  Its simple and straight forward.  I guess things are going to change.

New glasses

I have this issue with contacts, they make my eyes dry out, so I have been wearing glasses almost exclusively for the last 6 years.  The thing is, since I wear them so much, my glasses are REALLY important to me.  They say something about who I am, I think.  So choosing a pair of glasses is a big deal.  They have to be perfect, and I am in the market for a second pair of glasses.  Should I go funky, I was thinking maybe purple? Or tortoise?  Thoughts?  Here are some choices that have caught my eye:

Here are the ones I wear now, they are black, and I am not throwing them out, this second pair would be in addition to these:

I think I am in love with orange.

Its weird, really, and maybe its because every rooftop around me on campus is orange against a perfect blue sky, but I think I am in love with orange.  I bought an orange shirt last week, too, AND I have been using an orange highlighter for my school work, rather than my traditional go-to color pink.   And I have been wearing these soft coral colored earrings a lot lately too.  Random thought for the day.  :)

My Christmas Tree!!!

Cool Kid

Completed Kitchen!!!

Sorry this took so long to post, with moving and school, and my new job(!!! yes...more on that in another post) I present, THE kitchen: