Patience

I used to think I was smart, I don't know anymore.  I feel alone.  I feel helpless.  I feel scared.  I hate DRAMA and it feel like my life is filled with it right now.  I know I am a ball of emotion, with waves and crests.  I just want to be happy.  I'm patient and impatient all at once.  Sometimes I say crazy things, like I feel my life is getting away from me, and then I say some normal things, like, duh, Bianca your life is right now.  I think too much.  For sure.  Its simple and straight forward.  I guess things are going to change.