End

Sometimes things end with a whimper, and that's ok too.

Realization

Surround yourself with people who help make you a better you.  Positive people, with empathy, and understanding and kindness in their hearts.

pondering procrastination

I've noticed that I do it to myself. I am a heavy procratinator.  In a bad way.  Why do today what you can put off until tommorrow?  Its awful.  And it causes me much undue stress.  Stress that chips away at me, my clarity, my resolve.  I need to do something about it.  Its really avoidance after all isn't it?  UGHHHHH.

It all starts with perspective

If you don't have it, get some.  Try to get outside yourself, outside the problem, outside a situation - the view is AMAZING!  You take a step back, you can critically observe what you see, identify what works and what doesn't.   Then write it down.  In a journal.  A log of your joys and disappointments that is outside of your mind and tangible in your hands, that you can look at and analyze like any other piece of literature.  Those are my words of wisdom for the day.

New Years Resolutions - Repost for posterity

Steps in the progression of the Bianca 2.0 process. I think these will make me a better mom, daughter, partner, sister, friend.

1. get to know myself better, I am a pretty cool chick

2. demand the love I deserve.

3. stop wasting time on stuff that doesn't make me happy

4. exorcise those emotional vampires from my life

5. take care of my body, its the only one I have

6. don't sweat the small stuff

7. leave some room for spontaneity

8. work to live, not live to work

9. trust my gut, it tends to be right.

Changes in Bianca 2.0

1. Its all about perspective. That's the key.  Get outside of it a little and look from the outside in. Its an amazing view.
2. Know yourself as best you can.  Keep a journal. 
3.Understand that its ok to change your mind.  Who you are is ever evolving.
4. Be your own loudest cheerleader.  Love and support yourself.
5. Don't be afraid of being hurt. Mistakes are ok. You are going to fall flat on your face sometimes, but without the risk, there's no chance for the triumph.
6. Push yourself beyond what you think you are capable of.  There's so much you can do, you can't even imagine the possibilities! (take note of Number 3, yes, sometimes you will fail.  Its ok)
7. You can't change other people.  Stop wasting time trying. You can be the catalyst for change, though.  Be positive, smile, be happy.  It'll rub off on some, while others are oblivious.
8. Learn from the past, anticipate the future, but live in the NOW.